Thursday, 23 April 2009

april 21st

Something finally seems to be getting done in the way of treatment for me. At the moment I am with Complex Cases which is an outpatient programme 5 days a week. I went this morning from 11.30-1pm, skipping the last hour or so because when the group meeting had finished, the dinner had been cooked. Bacon filled the room and the psychiatrist began making them into gourmet sandwiches but since I can't eat in front of people (I've got a complex) I left. I hadn't eaten all day and didn't until 6pm so I felt ill and was dying to eat but I just couldn't bring myself to. Anyway, tomorrow after my appointment at the doctors to get my methadone prescription renewed I am going to be assessed by the HOME TREATMENT team. It was quite urgent so they offered to see me today but I didn't have the time. One condition is they can only see you if you haven't consumed any drugs or alcohol. Hello, I am a physically dependant alcoholic. So, I see them at 4pm so I don't know how I'm going to go all day without a drink. If they want a seizure on their hands, they can go ahead. This Home Treatment is an intensive programme and it provides a carer to be with you day in and day out which I do need really badly. Hopefully, I'll get it.

I am watching PAID IN FULL on BBC1, Its about the crack explosion in Harlem in the 80s. Today, even though I needed to save my money for the london trip this weekend, I got 3 bags of drugs- one crack cocaine, two heroin. I went with someone else to score and even though I could of scored myself, he took the money and wouldn't give me my crack until I gave him half for nothing. I wouldn't mind but he got a £20 bag plus while we were waiting this girl walks up to him and gives him a £20 bag to test. He grafts all day everyday and I can't so these drugs have to last me. Thanks a bunch you git. I don't mind sharing but he had loads more money on him. He wouldn't do that to a bloke. Anyway, things are getting pretty bad. My body is in a right state. Where I wrap the torniquet around my arm, i have such a bad rash and bruising all the way around. I bruise at the slightest touch and my needle holes are just not scabbing over, just swelling and becoming full of pus. When you knock my arm near to them, the pus will burst out. URGH.

The 21st was the closing day for all supporting letters on my housing move. Tomorrow they will discuss whether to move me out of my hellhole of a flat I don't live in because its surrounded by other junkies who constantly bully me. Fingers crossed.

12 comments:

Anonymous said...

i want to fuck you!

kelly Al-Saleh said...

Anonymous, you sure know how to make a girl feel special. Your mum must be really proud of you.

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Naomi, those needle holes sound nasty. Is your arm not any better?

I'm lucky, the only junkies I know is my best friend who is really loyal. When I'm skint he buys and vice versa. Our other friends aren't and don't know about our habit. They would be so shocked if they did.

take care x Kelly

Anonymous said...

it's true and i hope that dude made her work for her shit as in bend over and take it in the ass hole

i would bend her over and give it to her in the butt with the SHOCKER! and pump two in the pink make her go gaga and druel all over my shaft as i drive ram it into her mouth Naomi loves it when i do that to her i call it the zombie mcgee cause well yea...

kelly Al-Saleh said...

TO THE ANONYMOUS ARSEHOLE:

What's true?

Why hide your identity?
Because:
A] You're a coward who gets off on insulting women
OR
B] You're a sad, pathetic, spotty, ugly, tiny pink dicked twat.
OR
C] You're 12 years old and have just read your first porno story and felt the need to share it.

You're just a nuisance and Naomi has done well to ignore your pathetic comments.

You ought to consider sterlisation, pity it's too late for your parents. As I said before, they must be soooo proud of you.

Junkies are a better class of people to the likes of you by far. From what I can gather from your comments so far, you're really low down the evolutionary scale. (you're probably too thick to know what that means).

You sad sad sad piece of shite.

Go fuck yourself - you're probably incapable of that even.

SHOW YOUR A MAN BY REVEALING YOUR IDENTITY. But your too much of a coward so, I rest my case.

(sorry Naomi, I had to have a go at this imbecile but I'll be ignoring him from now on, best way to deal with these sad pricks - waste of time and space).

Sarcastic Bastard said...

You go, Kelly! Anonymous is a dumb motherfucker.

Naomi, I will keep my fingers crossed with you about the housing. Please take care of yourself as much as you are able.

Hugs,

SB

Anonymous said...

easy kelly al-iraqi i'm just practicing my freedom of expression so let me continue...

yea Naomi I would rape you...I would get you fucked up on dope and when you're noddin i'd tie your hands behind your back and your legs spread and pipe you in the VAG but that wouldn't be rape cause you'd like it even though you wouldn't want it...then i'd slam you with some yayo to wake you up so you can come on my cock but i'd stop before you cum because i don't want you to have that satisfaction and then id fuck you in the ass and when you're pregnant with my baby at 9 months i'll punch you in the belly and then leave you on the side of the street to die and get fucked by any other animal that wants to use you like me

Sarcastic Bastard said...

Naomi,
Thanks for checking out my blog. I think maybe you should turn your comments monitoring on. I, unfortunately, had to do the same thing because I got (laugh) a Christian stalker.

Your Anonymous fuckwit is making me mad. What a way to talk to a lady. Jerk.

Sarcastic Bastard said...

Also, I added you to my blog roll.

Anonymous said...

ok real talk...i'll give you a brick to let me fuck you in the ass...you like gear bitch? take my offer

kelly Al-Saleh said...

Sarcastic Bastard: Thanks for the support. I'm bored with the Anon Fuckwit. He can't be serious anyway or he wouldn't hide his identity. No-one can take him up on his lovely offer!

I'm not Iraqi, my Dad's Palestinian, my Mum from Belfast (Northern Ireland). My Dad was in Kuwait when the Iraqis invaded his home. He said the Iraqi soldiers were no more that 16 years old!

Naomi, hope your got a place to call home now. Also, let us know how the concert went.

x Kelly

Sarcastic Bastard said...

Hi, Kelly! We read a lot of the same blogs, and I enjoy reading your comments.

My best to you! Stop by my blog if you get the chance. Your comments are always welcome there.

Hi, Naomi! Keep us posted on things. Thinking of you.

SB

Frankiecon said...

Hey Naomi,

Am hoping you can turn things around. Looks like there are a lot of people there that can help you. Take advantage, please.

Keep us posted